Have you ever had one of those weeks that totally tested your depth of patience, grit and persistence and made you wonder what the universe was trying to give you insights into in terms of what you might be resisting in life?
Since I learned to tap into all the information that is immediately available to me I am constantly noticing what is manifesting in my life and taking the opportunity to learn, grow and expand my awareness. By “information” I am not only talking about what you are getting from books, Facebook, the internet, I am talking about the plethora of information that comes from within your own being.
Your whole being is a library. Information comes from your mental, emotional, physical and spiritual bodies in the form of the thoughts you think, the emotions your feel, how this translates into what your body sensations are experiencing, and what your intuition is telling you. These responses come about as you relate to or react to what is happening in your outer world and give you massive clues as to your overall wellbeing and how well developed your overall “intelligence” is.
This week has been the perfect example of learning to relate and not to react to seemingly random circumstances.
In the midst of delivering a significant project that has time and budget limitations, I realised that I hadn’t seen my some of my family for nine months and was unlikely to see them for another nine months because Christmas plans were up in the air and a lot was happening.
Over the years I have learned the hard way (aka burn out) that there is never a good time to take time out of your schedule to recharge and reconnect with what is truly important.
With this is mind I planned and delegated critical project duties to others in the team, so we could take a week out to recharge and on a remote station in South Australia.
Think no mobile phone coverage and nearest grocery store three hours away. Heaven.
Leading up to the time when we were about to depart, I was sucked into the usual “must get everything done before I go away” trick that we play on ourselves and I noticed a few things. I was getting shorter with the way I spoke to people in that “just get the job done tone”, my breathing was shallower as I rushed about, a slight tinge of guilt stepped in from my emotional body, and my physical body was definitely a lot tenser and more agitated about the time constraints. Every time I noticed this I checked myself, took a deep breath and did the next thing that needed attention.
Sometime on the Friday afternoon there came a knowing that I had done all I could and that by this time the next day life in the rat race would be way behind me. It was a moment of letting go, a big release. I felt my body relax, my breathing deepen, my mind calm and my heart sing. Bliss.
A Course in Miracles says: “The first obstacle to bliss is the desire to get rid of it”. At that point the universe stepped in to test how dedicated I am to my awareness around patience and resilience and what I might be resisting in life.
The plan was: late train ride to Sydney to stay the night before catching early flight to Adelaide; pick up a car to drive 8 hours north and be hugging family and sipping on a cider by 7pm the next day.
All good – plan working until at 5am on day two and ready to go when email for flight carrier says “flight status – cancelled”!
Initial reaction. “Doh …. I had a gut feel this might happen” (from past experience with the same flight). Acceptance came quickly and I was checking the next flight and thinking about what can we do in the meantime in Sydney with a 7 hour wait. Not to be outsmarted the universe double checked my commitment to patience through having to sit with the reactions of my traveling companions.
A picture-perfect day in Sydney down around Circular Quay at 6am watching the boats come and go, the world waking up and noticing the sun as it shimmered on the blue water. The ocean liner The Carnival Princess was depositing a load of passengers after a cruise and picking up its next load of happy holidayers. The Museum of Contemporary Art had an interesting exhibition by Chinese artist Sun Xun which opened by 9am.
A precious day behind, with an unplanned stay in Port Augusta we finally turned down the 11km driveway to be rewarded with wide open spaces, basic country living and no mobile phone service. Yep no Telstra coverage out there.
In the meantime, Woomera Defence firing range was at work planning a missile test fire which just happened to have a flight path directly across our destination on Bush Heritage Australia owned Bon Bon Station on its way to the drop zone somewhere in Western Australia. We were forewarned about this, understanding that we would have to evacuate the station on the night of the firing, along with all of the people on properties on the flight path. This was already part of the plan and we were comfortable in the knowledge that we were just happy to be having “hang out” time with family.
My commitment to “hang out” time and taking life as it comes was tested when we had to evacuate the property three nights out of the four we stayed there! We packed dogs, camping equipment and food for one night at a time as the Woomera team planned, then cancelled the firing night after night, waiting until we were settled around the campfire to let us know that it had been put off till the next night. Being at the mercy of someone else’s agenda is a real test of patience.
On the flip side, the stars in the semi-arid zones of Australia, where you can see to the horizon without it being interrupted by any man made structures, are nothing short of spectacular. One can fall asleep gazing at the milky way, counting the stars of the constellations and breathing in the crisp, clean desert air. In the evenings the sunsets are a sight to behold and the sunrises bring with them a waking up of all of the desert birds and their song. The fire crackles to life as the first riser throws a stick on and boils the billy for a morning cuppa. Hang out time.
In the back ground my mind was on occasionally checking work related emails, knowing that I had some documents to review for a major meeting next week. My resistance to doing this during my time out was met by a computer glitch which prevented me from logging onto the satellite dish boosted internet service!
Holy Moley, heart rate goes up, shoulders slump, mind goes into a flap about deadlines and time constraints again and resistance to just staying in the moment is highlighted.
I persisted with trouble shooting the technical issue up until I finally let it go on our way back when I couldn’t get hold of my tech support person to help me with it. Again, something higher than me showing me that I really was just meant to stop, let it go and fully commit to going with the flow.
On the last leg of the journey home we waited expectantly for the flight to Sydney when … Oh no … up flashed the “cancelled” message on the departures board against our flight number. How can this be? Twice in the same week on the same trip! We halted in mid stride and along with 200 other people collectively turned on our heels and headed back to the service desk as directed by the woman over the loudspeaker.
By this time I was in total surrender to the moment, having practiced all week patience and resilience. I had a pleasant conversation with the couple in front of me as we edged our way to the front of the line. The staff at the desk were clearly prepared for many disgruntled passengers and I noticed their bodies were tense with anticipation of someone having a meltdown. When It was my turn I politely asked if I could change our flight to extend to Newcastle rather than stopping in Sydney and the woman was eager to accommodate me as she let me know the next available flight was 5 hours later.
Patience and persistence had been rewarded so many times during the week. So many brief encounters with interesting people, new experiences and opportunities just to let life BE.
At the markets in The Rocks in Sydney, I met a kindred spirit and small business owner who loves nature and Noisy Minors from littlenoisyminer. Sat next to a most interesting young German traveler on the flight to Adelaide who had just graduated from mechanical engineering and who had three weeks to take in China and central Australia. We started talking after he noticed I was humming a Cher song and asked “are you going to see Cher?”. In Port Augusta I connected with an Arrente woman who whispered in soft tones as she spoke and whose gaze touched my soul. Not to mention so much quality time with family.
Here at Adelaide airport long enough to pen this blog and listen to a busker play relaxing music. Mood of whole airport has changed. Feels relaxing and warm. Think I will kick back, just be and take it all in.
Wait …holding pattern over Melbourne because of a closed runway … What a week!
Close eyes, relax shoulders. Breathe in patience and resilience … breath out resistance.
I am a Conscious Living Coach and Breathwork practitioner who is dedicated to supporting people who are full up to pussies bow with the busyness of life to gain clarity and make room for more of the good stuff in life. I do this through programs that utilise metaphysical principles, mindfulness and techniques that use your own breath as a tool to raising self-awareness and personal power so that you can live more in the moment, lead with more confidence, love more deeply and live more creatively. To find out more you can contact me to have a chat.
My passions are nature, people, and building cultures of cooperation, harmony, sharing and reverence for life. I enjoy working with people to help them understand themselves and others so they can reach their full potential in life.